my life story

what do you do when see someone burning in front of your eyes and if that someone is your bff what will you do cry kill your self or simply find a new one ??
i did the first thing anybody will do i cry every time i see his face i imagine him in my room sitting and burned i cry again and close my eyes after that i start to be kind of crazy i start to talk with my self hearing some kind of a sound calling me deep inside my soul but it wasn't my friend it was my own sound weird i talk with my self since then every time i fell lonely i`m no more making new friends i`m with only one friend me ho understand everything and he fell the pain i`m felling he is always there for me and always with me i know it sounds crazy and if i tell some one he will absolutely laugh on me my other soul always tell me if i`m wrong and he gives advice and warn me from things going to happen will that doesn't mean that i`m lonely with a soul i have tow friends but i`m away from my city and i can only contact them on the net last time i see them was the day of the funeral after that my family and i moved somewhere else
after all that i learned one thing that life is not a heaven like people said that life is always so happy and you can make it happy
no life must have dark moments
before that happen to me i use to think that life is happy and always will be but i was wrong