A day in the life of me

I wake up every morning hoping one day my life will change and be good for once, i never wake up happy, i always wake up sad and depressed. I get ready for school run to the bus then catch the train. I never want to go to school, i get called ratty, ugly mutt, chat and other mean names, then i get texts telling me to go kill myself and hopefully make everyone happy and die! i cut myself everyday, i take pills hoping to O.D but never do which is sad, i make it through school then i come home and get yelling at and abused by my family i have cut and bruises everywhere cause of it. no one ever asks me why or how i got them they all just stare at me i try and get at least 1 hour of sleep at night but im lucky to get 10 minutes. i hope i die soon my life is bad