A Short story of dialogue |
487 words “Maria, stop crying and look at me! I keep trying to explain and you’re not listening. How are we ever going to get through this if you keep walking away and won’t even hear me out?” I told you this wouldn’t end well. This was such a typically selfish move!! You knew how much I needed you. “You still do and I need you more than ever. I can change… I can try harder, but you have to stop shutting me out. I know you want to fix this. I can see it in your eyes. Your silent tears speak louder than any words ever could” Is there something I could have done? I tried so hard to be what you needed me to be. Hell, I tried to be what you needed anyone to be: at any given moment. Sometimes it felt like my entire point in life was to make you happy! Maybe that was my huge flaw! I just want to know why! WHY? “Look, if you’ll just hear me out, I’m trying to tell you that things are going to be different. I know we’ve had our fair share of problems… Ok, I had my fair share of problems and you stuck by me when nobody else would. Sometimes it seemed like things would never get better. You think I don’t know how much I’ve hurt you? I do! It echoes through me every time I see the hurt in your eyes. You are my everything” I counted on you. I trusted you. I looked up to you for so long. Whatever your “pipe dream” of the day was, it became mine to. I All I ever wanted was to live your dreams with you. I believed in you. Why wasn’t I enough? What did I do wrong? “None of this was your fault. Why can’t you understand that things are different now? I know I’ve said it before but this time it’s really different. I’m done with the drugs. I don’t even crave them anymore. I didn’t realize how much I was hurting you. I get it now. I understand” I’ve missed you so much. So many things have happened that you should have been a part of. I have a baby girl now now. I named her after you. Alees is going to be one in August. When I lost you I lost more than a best friend, I lost my mother. It’s been seven years, momma, and I still miss you as much as I did the day I lost you but I have to let go. I forgive you. I forgive you for taking your own life. I forgive you for leaving me. You were sick and I understand that. Watch over us Mom. I'll always love you “I love you too and I will always be watching over you, my sweet Maria. Now I can move on too” |