She's my Heroine

I wish hearts and minds would work as one.
But I guess when they do you've found your soul mate.

My heart beats and controls me
When my mind says
NO
STOP
DON'T
But my heart over powers.
There are times I've thought
What the fuck am I doing?
The only answer is diddly
I know what could happen
What might happen
And what will eventually happen.

I don't care
Because in this moment
In that very moment
In that very second
I kiss her
I hug her
I see her
It's pure bliss
Pure contentment
Pure posion
Slowly killing me

I need her
I want her
I crave her
My body aches for her

I've never done drugs
But I imagen it's alot like heroine
The moment
I hug her
Kiss her
See her
The fire yet again runs through my veins
It takes over my entire body
I try not to let it show
Just as a drug addict would try to hide the fact that he's high
From his friends and family
But slowly they see the changes
The fact that he's getting addicted

Addiction is never an easy task
But is admitting addiction
admitting love?

So I love her...
Or am I addicted?
Addicted to the high of her

The pain is breif
And then instant high

The sex is like coming home
Having the worse possible day
And doing a whole bag to your self

The nerves set in
You tell your self

"Your stronger
You don't need it
You dont need her."

But yet again
The addiction takes over
Your heart plays another illusion
And the moments come and gone
And there I lay
HIGH
And for that moment
I'm in pure bliss
Happiness

But the drug is only in my veins
Till I have to leave her again

My high my linger
For a moment
Or two
After she's gone
But then it's gone for good

I feel nothing
I feel worse than nothing
I feel empty
Because now again
My body craves her

It craves the very thing
that is slowly killing me

I'll try to get sober
But I am only fooling my self
Because I know that maybe
Tomorrow
Maybe next week
Or next month
I will relapse.

The weeks to come will be pain
And struggle
I will to devirt my attention from it
From her
But that high

My addiction will over power
Just as my heart once did

And it will be worth every drop
And the excitement is enough
To keep me Addicted

Addicted to love
Addicted to her
Addicted to loving her

She is my Heroine.