Sweetest Love Never Heard

Can I pull you close, I want to hold you,
Now get as far way, the smell of trust is way to much.
It wasn't my choice, in my heart something noticed you
I need my time and space.
Don't fill me with your sweetness, as it's just a waste.
Harsh, but true, it's just me, not you.
The shoes you would have tto fill, it's not fair-- it could be a bit surreal.
I have looked for love, in the end only to find nothing but pain-- it's so real.
Realness and bitterness is all my heart has ever known,
I'm sorry for this fakeness, the anguish I have felt- has never been able
to be shown.
I care I really do, I would understand if these feelings of mine were
to high a demand.