I Believe

I Believe

There comes a time in all of our lives when we have to spread our wings and leave the comfort and safety of our home. Whether I like it or not, I’m getting older and getting older means more responsibility, more heartache, more pain, more love, and more moments when I feel like giving in.

No one said it was going to be easy. No one said it was going to all fall in place for you. The truth is, leaving home sucks. As a junior and being a girl, I realized that maybe I’m not ready to leave home. I don’t want to be on my own. It’s a big world out there, and I’m just one person. One person out of a billion people ready to shred my dreams. I’m not ready to take on the responsibility of being an adult quite yet. There’s still so much I haven’t done and I only have one more year left before I have to grow up.

I still want to be able to run to my mom when I’m in trouble. I want to be able to run barefoot through the soft grass not caring about bills or what life may bring. Most importantly, I want to go back and stop time to when I was little and my biggest worry was which toy I wanted to take with me. I remember being a little child and watching my brother and sister getting onto the bus, and as I watched them get onto that bus the only thing that I wanted was to be older like them. I would have given anything to be their age and be a “big kid,” but now that I am a “big kid” I would gladly give up anything to go back to being little and innocent.

I believe that even though we want to stay home and not care. Eventually we all have to learn grow up and leave the “nest.” You might not like it, and you will be tempted to go running back home to avoid the cruelness of the world, but you can’t because you might be far away from everyone who has been there for you. Hopefully this will be the moment in my life that I will take it like a champ and prove that I can be on my own. I’ll refuse to let the world and the people in it ruin my chance to be a success. I’m a junior and I am almost ready to spread my wings and fly far away from here. I know I will get my mistakes shoved in my face, but that’s life and I will get stronger and I will not run and hide. It’s a big world out there, but I guess that’s why man created chocolate, right?