Night in byblos

I want chemicals I want happiness I want it in my veins I want it in my soul I want to omit the happiness you seek I want to bleed the confidence you dream
And when I dance and when I shun your fear you see how truly beautiful it is to be alive and
  When I tell you now
To stop fragmenting my sentences
To stop quantifying my happiness
You raise your voice, you call me cutesy little names that anger my ego and your lameness is so trivial to me I scoff and hit enter
When I run on the ropes as you walk on the sidewalk my eyes glimmer and my soul is light and bears with it youth that you try to destroy with your disgust
With your distrust
With your dirty jealous eyes

Week after week we laugh at those who mask themselves, we spit on the bare-faced mannequins parading among  those who seek life but they fear, and fear shows upon relief

Muscles relaxed, an almost smirk, and those who don’t understand, like you, bask in judgment you are afflicted by your tension and you deteriorate as your dreams slither away and your reality, is not mine, and the chemicals
They remind me that I can be, in a bubble, floating,  and yet among you
      I lose my disguise
I lose my anger
I retain only the goodness that I want to share
And share I do , and it radiates! It becomes addictive

And when they leave, the chemicals they leave
I am THROWN back into your world

I eat honey off a spoon to remember the sweetness that the world binges,
I run barefaced, like a child, as I leap down the stairs of spontaneity,
Sweet innocent youth prevails as I try to live among you again,

And with a glimmer of hope I roam around, forcefully ignorant, I refuse to belief that
The stars aren’t mine
I ignore your assertions of reality,
And desperately cling onto mine,

I want happiness. I want it all the time. You will not take it from me. I want to omit the happiness you seek I want to bleed the confidence you dream