This is about my having a crush on one of my close female friends and my confusion. |
How did this happen? I can’t believe how much things have changed How did this happen? That I could feel such a range Of feelings and emotions It’s all so amazing and strange As if my heart, mind and soul are an ocean Overflowing with something real and intense How did this happen? One day I only feel platonic and it makes sense We go out and have fun and I have a dream Then the next day I feel something new Why does it seem That my view of us and of you Has literally changed overnight? How did this happen? I question whether I should fight What I feel, question it, ignore it Or if I should take a chance And tell you how I feel I’m so afraid you won’t feel the same The pain that would cause is all too real This is my life, yours too and not a game I love how close our friendship has become And I hope and pray that won’t ever change Because to me you will always be someone Who I care about, appreciate, respect, and love How did this happen? I really don’t know But the fact is it did so… What do I do? I’m new to the queer scene And don’t know how to make a move Maybe I need to talk to more people Help me find my groove But it’s not all about me You have a part in this too If I admit to you What I feel It will affect you too I don’t want to put any pressure on you Who knows how you’d feel About the age difference Or about the reality Of being a couple at church And there’s my family Who pretend my queer side doesn’t exist How did this happen? Is it meant to be? Only God knows and we’ll find out And I ask God for the courage To take a chance and see what we’re really about. |