Dear Baby

I saw your hands, and your little face.
You were so tiny, No one should be that small.
I felt you, you seemed so helpless.
I could tell you were looking at me, even with your eyes tight shut.
You layed there for a while, then they took you away.
I'm sorry if i hurt you, It wasn't meant to hurt.

Baby please forgive me?
Id do anything i could.
I hope you didn't feel it, I hope you didn't see me cry.
I wish i could have held you, Felt your fingers wrapped around mine.
But you were gone long before then weren't you, you'd already joined the stars in the sky.

I understand if you hate me baby, I hate me for what Ive done.
I'll bleed for what Ive done baby,
I'm sat shaking and crying wishing you were here.
I feel so empty baby,
Why didn't you hold on tighter? Why didn't you say no ?
I couldn't hear you screaming, please say thats because they weren't there.

I'll never get to kiss you on the head, or sing you to sleep.
Ill never see you smile or listen to you laughing.
You'll never breath fresh air, go to school or loose your keys.
But thats what people do, and thats what you are.
Thats what you were, A person. My person
My baby.
You were my baby.
Dear baby,
This is mummy speaking i murdered you today.
I just wanted to say I'm sorry.