The first stride

The First Stride

I gaze up at the vast blues,
And I realize, i want to fly,
I want to take off to that wonderland,
Yes, I will try.
Something in me believes,
The limit lies,
Beyond that sky.

But just when I take my first stride,
The gravity brings me back to the start.
And I try once, I try twice,
But then it begins to break my heart.

But I hold it together, to try again.
Only to find out, it was all in vain.

This time when I fall,
It hurts. It hurts real bad.
It drives me crazy,
It makes me mad.

The key is in my hand.
But i can't unlock my door.
Its all an illusion.
Nothing seems logical anymore.

Everything has gone out of hand,
I don't see any scope,
I have given up by now,
Lost all hope.

My vision starts to blur due to the tears,
Its not my dreams coming true,
They're my fears.

The grief has settled in,
Which I can't overcome.
Bit by bit, my soul dies,
Making me numb.

I can't feel anything now,
Not even my pain.
My heart has stopped co-operating,
And so, has my brain.

But its when numbness has taken over me,
From head to toe,
Suddenly, my cold dead skin starts to feel,
The wind which blow.

The warmth of the sun, gets to my flesh,
Giving me strength to fight,
The light penetrates my eyes,
Giving them back,
Their lost life.

Finally, I take a deep breath,
To summon all my courage,
Newly found.
Fear of failure insignificant,
My enthusiasm knows no bounds.

From pushing myself, to the extreme,
This time, I don't refrain.
And with everything I have,
I take my first stride, towards my goal, again.