Living Life

living life the way I'm living is a little complicated,
sitting on my bed with the knife to my wrist contiplating
i know this isn't the best choice but right now I'm feeling really screwed
all the reasons for me to do it outweighs the reasons the not to
this is what happens when you think to much about life i guess
you start doubting the good things and the bad things gets you stressed
you become insecure and don't think your worthy of anything
so you walk around with a depressed look and get sad at almost everything
you can be talking to fifty people and it still seems like your all alone
because no one really gets you and no one really knows
the stuff that depresses you and the thought thats in your head
the reasons that you frown so much and wish that you were dead
is it funny how when your happy, everyone is your friend
but when you sad and really need them that friendship always ends
what happened to the real friendships, the "we'll always stick together
and if your ever feeling under the weather come to me i'll be here forever"
i guess thats the job of your other half right?
but what happens when even their unfaithful in the night
what happens when the one who claimed they loved you gets you mad
the one who said i got your heart on a big reason why your sad
or what about the people who don't know what it feels to be loved
how are they supposed to see when their head it to heavy to lift by themselves and no one is around to help lift it so they can look above
I've never been loved back even though I've given it so many times
getting the girl always fails even though I've given it so many tries
so I'm done trying I'm dine trying, its my turn to give up
i can't sit here and hope for a better future 2m I've done that enough
so i guess you can say this is a letter of my leave
a letter of sadness turn to joy, a letter of my relief
i'll walk toward the darkness until my body is transparent
so please close your eyes and forget me, and just accept my disappearance...