Break Down and Resolution

      Break Down

am I slowly going insane
does everyone know but me
knowing and just turn the other way
not wanting the bother to help

often wondering, what other people think
not really wanting to know
I hear what they say
but not when I'm not there?

am I good enough, for your attention
will I scare you away
so many people leave
with me wondering.... what I've, done wrong?

things that run through my head
I think people would wonder
the logistics of it all
the debate that goes on
the rambling on so...
to myself
the sounds I know I hear
help make the pictures in my head.


am I slowly going insane
does everyone know but me
or do I really know
not wanting to admit
the troubles I bring to myself,
have gotten me thus far

always at work
or helping out her friends
never home to make a mess
just trying to clean, up others

that's what I'd like, to think
they say
but know it's
probably not

lonely little home body
mooching off of others
I think
that's, more like it

people probably think I'm crazy
or maybe insane
but I already know that
and don't really care
cuz that's the way I think.
I like it
and don't think I'll change

I'm my own person
refuse to be one of
societies robots
must look a certain way
or be odd, retarded or crap

not good enough
for your attention
well, I think screw that
this is who I am inside
and you'll just have to deal with that


    Resolution


  making mistakes
  and learning
  that's what makes a life
  not the number of years
  you've been here
  or color of your skin
  not the kind of house you live in
  or the clothes that you wear
  just the rules that you live by
  risks that you take
  just the morals you use each day
  experiences that you make