not too good love

today i depart for the fair one accross the way
she will either release me of her spel or alow me in
i want in, to be cast out would be the eath of me
she holds the key to my soul

upon hearing of her new lover i crouched and groaned in pain tearing my hair
i put my fists through walls and went red....everything was red
my vision was replaced by a dark red substance, i was having a psychotic episode, or nervious breakdown,
however you may phrase they are extremely painfulll and difficult to endure and even more difficult to come out of still with a grain of sanity..i cam out of it, what was taken form me in the fever i will never know.. whatever it was it cant compare to my fair one being taken from my eyes.

i have not seen her for five years but have loved her just the same as if she were here beside me
obsesion is an odd thing, it was be misunderstood...i think its the souls realisation that it has found its mate and cannot bear the thought of losing her and wandering the earth a soulless shell for eternity.

what other reason are we here other than finding smeone to share our lives with...if we have to pass the time until death why not be with someone you love and loves you...what do you do when the one you thought was made for you and you for her rejects you?, how does one go on...how can you rebuild your psyche