Love and Hate

I gaze up into your eyes.
I feel like I'm melting into your arms.
Your hand holding mine makes me feel like I will drift out of my shoes.
Your whispers make me feel like I'm going to puke.
I despise the fact that I love you.
I feel disgusted that you’re so remarkable.
I hate that I see you every day.
I love your shy voice.
I love your tender ways.
I love your character.
Yet my hate surpasses my love for you.
You wounded me down deep.
You shredded me down to the core.
You made me cry until I was out of tears.
You tore me apart until I was nothing left.
You danced on my heart when it was hanging by a twine.
Then you cement me together, just to tare me down to nothing again.