You've Become My Cancer

what is gleaming in your eyes that which has penetrated your heart such despise and disgust for me I lost my soul that night and with it my heart hearing those words of hate my life breaking apart how could you just push me away into an instantforgotten void an unwanted child of sin bastard, thats what I was told but yearned to love another your devotion was defective that night you gave a message goodbye your no longer my lover Its still a cancer that plagues me I want to hate your being ingore your existance just so I can keep on living living without you, alone god how I miss his touch life now seems wasted oh god, its all too much please take away all this pain each day I slip further into hell moving from vice to vice satan, under his spell Maybe i take this to the grave never again to be happy just to drown in despair slipping from all sanity I cant stop loving him now a burden I bare greiving as if a death for a loved one lost greiving for the what if before i was just tossed