Dwelling madness

I balance every day between insanity and sanity. It is hard to stand on the edge and you can see and feel yourself tipping at one side at the time. The tears of desperation and the screams of madness dwelling inside me. I have to use all my mental strength and faith to keep them back, to not loose it. The faith that is about the believe in myself, the believe that i can do everything i want and the mental strength that makes me do it.
One thing is missing. what do i want to do? The madness sneaks up from behind and attack my thoughts, the most vulnerable part of the modern human. I will go under soon.