The everlasting search

The inside of a wisper, a second of misunderstanding,
a simple "leave" opened my eyes to the lie into
which i had escaped. the self-deception that
I had created as to not live my reality, without
realizing what I was doing to myself, and everyone
else.
A simple desire of love brought me to fall into the
temptation that broke the balance I had established,
and locked me once again into the pandoras box i had
locked away inside.
Tonight on the beach I realized I have become
something I hate, a person who hides behind a wall
for fear of non-aceptance from those she loves the
most, without realizing she is simple yet complicated
like everyone else.
That inside this body of bones, muscle, blood and
organs there is a spirit, a soul, full of feeling,
love, hate, happiness and sorrow...a box of surprises
that even I had never seen.
and if I can not learn to accept me I cannot expect
others to...so here I am, once again in search off
Ivriels.