Random Thoughts

RANDOM THOUGHTS
Why is it that every time you seem to find your little random glint of sunshine in this dark time that there is always a cloud waiting to rain a seemingly never ending storm on your hope for happiness?
That somewhere out there their is someone who feels like you, thinks like you and definitely has become or will become your friend. Then you must tell yourself that it is only just that and nothing more.
For the miles are many the roads wind and turn and though at first they may have been straight they now have become a dimly lit narrow path that could lead you into a heartbreak if you allow it to.
You hold the thoughts that when they are going through their storm you would gladly hold the umbrella of love and protection over them. Use all your might to send out the brightest beacon of light to them so they could not stumble. That if they did fall you would be there in the blink of an eye and dust them off hug away the pain and watch them as they walk on unknowing of how you would love to let yourself feel about them.
You want to be their encouragement their everything and you have to be just the caring friend for that is what fate and life has dealt you for the moment, the moment that is so sweet that the dream of more would surely drive you insane if you ponder it too much. The smell the feel the soft gentle caress of the hands you long to hold.
Love every minute of the short time you have no matter the length, for there in those moments you find smiles the rarity of them now. You find in them an encouragement that makes you want to not be a disappointment.
Then you must end it for was it ever even real, was it what it appeared to be or were you just dreaming of what you would like?
Just random thoughts again. Before I turn off the beacon light that I was sending out across those many mile to someone who was already bright enough to light their own way.
June 15, 2008