Agony’s Truths...

Agony’s Truths...

We’re breaking up - we’re breaking down.
Who was the fool?  Who is the clown?
Who’s faulted for the last hurrah
That brought about our fatal flaw?
I say it’s you – you say it’s me
Who wants to run; who wants to flee.

I know I want this pain to end,
This jokester person labeled, ‘friend’;
Who treats me with such stark disdain.
{Full witness to my tears and pain}
He says I choke him in his day
Engulfing him - smack in his way.

He now tells secrets of the lies
He kept inside like little spies
Collecting all the shameful deeds
I’ve flung on him for my own needs.
How dastardly am I to him
To gag him to fulfill a whim...

He’s chucked me right out of his mind
With sentence wrought - and papers signed;
While justifying his new life 
By sharing how I cause such strife!
The good I’ve done – discarded scrap.
It counts for not – it’s such a slap...

But this is how he works inside.
I’ve known for years – eyes opened wide.
I no more matter; this is clear;
I’ve been dismissed without a tear.
And now ‘tis mine to feel the sting
Of shifting roles that changes bring.

Oh what to do with surplus love
Now cast aside and barren of
A place to fit – a place to share,
A space of comfort – no despair...
I wander pointlessly amid
This life, debunked - that he undid.

Recouping will be hard and long;
Regrouping should help make me strong.
I hope, I pray, I make new gains,
Devoid of his distressing chains.
I pray I can resign - release
And once again - gain inner peace.