Homesick for a place i've never been

I’m homesick for a place I’ve never been. A place so close, yet so far away. I’m almost there I can feel it inside me. Growing and growing, this feeling won’t leave. My soul hurts. A burning sensation that just won’t go. It’s longing for this place I can’t see, but I can feel it deep down in this endless hole in the center of my heart. And after all my searching I’ve realized that it’s not a physical place, but a mental state. It’s a state of higher consciousness. A feeling of calmness over these chaotic thoughts. When I think back of how I used to be, I see the evil in my ways. I know now how to pursue this happiness. And with each passing day my will grows stronger. This will be an endless struggle and a constant test but I will overcome my darkness. I’ll fill this dark void in my heart and become whole again one day. I’ll live for this peace of mind I seek. And when I get to this mental state I’ll be complete and I can die knowing that I didn’t waste my time on this planet. And if you take this journey with me it will be like no other struggle you’ve ever felt. But in the end it will all be worth it. For you will know true peace. And you can be set free…