Young love

I was unloved by so many,I had a dark side to me . well all of me and intill i got into high school, I was only starting out as a freshmen and learnd alot about love.welp heres my out look on life on how i see things my name is October and this is my story. Last year i became a freshmen at Lukerson high and many people knew me as the goth girl i always wore black i had a strand of red in my hair.I was an outcast Till i met Jeremy He seemed like a cool guy at first intill i found out the real him so we just keep it at the Friend level in our realationship. nothing more..My dad always asked me if i was going to ever change my only brother thought i was a freak and i had no sisters to hang around with and its was okay to me to seem like a freak and not a good thing to nature or a good infulance on kids. My friend Jessica asked me "Are you ever going to find true love and get out of ur dark stage?" she was the over all dressed nice sweet kid..i said to her"I may never change Jessica things in my life have been so hard for me i lost my mom when i was 5 its just me and mark and dad now how can i worrie about guys when i have to take care of them?" and she said"You need to get out more,Wear a little more color besides black meet new people" so i said"And how do u supose we do that?" Jessica said"My friend Megan Smith is haveing a party saturday and we are going to it!" so i thought 'Why not it wouldnt be so bad other than NOONE knows me!!' so i told Jessica"Okay fine ill go to your friends party but if anyone and i mean anyone freaks out becuse iam going to be there than we are leaveing" and Jessica said"YAY!" I really wasnt sure if i wanted to go to the party saturday with Jessica but i mean how bad could it be? Maybe true love would find me after all or maybe this party could be a total disaster and i get imbaressed like one of those cheesy movies.......Later that night Jessica came by to get me and she said "Are you ready to party?" i said "Not really" she said "Why do you say that" and i told her "Because i can tell this is going to be a total disaster" she looked at me with this go to hell look and i said "What?!!!?" and she said "Sto being a drag and come one and have fun!" so i said okay..So on our way to the party and i see Jeremy and so Jessica stops and says well yells "HEY JEREMY COME HERE!!" so he walks over to the car and says "Hey where are yall going?" and i said"To Jessicas Friends House party" and Jeremy said "Cool can i come?" and Jessica said "Hop in!" So Jeremy got into the car and we were on our way to the party and when we got there, There where so many people there i was imbaressed it looked like one big origy party! Jessica said "Are you ready to party October?" and i said "Yea why not" Then as soon as i was getting out of the car Jeremy put his hand on my shoulder and said "Dont worrie noones going to think your a freak" and i just thought 'yea thats what you think' and Jeremy was the emo haired tattooed up kinda guy and i do have a crush on him and i knew he wouldnt like me because he thinks we are just firends like last time i tryed but ive chnanged sense then so why not atleast try yano. i mean after all what could possiably go wrong? so then we walk into Megans house and it seems like a good party people danceing drinking laughing and just having a good time