Amphigory

I don't dare to write anymore..

this ink on paper
a worthless stain.
void words
I can't erase.

countless times I've tried
to excorcise, to free my mind.

a disillusioned reality,
these untamed emotions,
nostalgic thoughts
constantly haunting me.
this amphigory....

it sickens me..

betrayal. love, passion, lies..
momentary satisfaction..
almost touching perfection...
its al there..
    hidden
amongst my disarray of words.

disguisted by my petty attemps
to live
to love
to feel alive...!

this enigma....
it fascinates me.