feeling younger getting older

Following on from the post that introduced the nothingness of excitement.
Example: women as children hear or learn about their mother giving birth in pain and learn about the adult attitude to the pain -- so the 'hang tough' attitude is learned by girls at an early age.

The struggle (to be free of pain) is about words and their definitions. If you accept your friend's definition of words then your not thinking for yourself and you are leaning upon them for support: using a crutch.

This often most critical in thoughts about the opposite sex.

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Excitement is polarized. It is a fight of pleasure versus pain so that each is tainted and not pure.
So even when a person feels comfortable and safe in a pleasurable feeling it is not actually a pure feeling anyway -- not a natural feeling.

Relationships can be so exciting a couple will not notice the two pleasure and pain feelings present.
For example a couple in hot sex could swap roles several times during the night and one be hot pseudo pleasure and the other hot pseudo pain but then they reverse the roles as the sexual fight changes.

Pseudo-Pain-hot-sex has a burgendy-color feeling and the opposite opponent has a maroon-color feeling or emotion.

So the former is primarily attack and the latter primarily defence: a codependency.

(Codependencies are simply explained as coach and coached. The athlete leans on the coach for motivational and guidance support and the coach leans on the athelete as a means of living vacariously and for money: co-dependent. For the coach: 'My tendency to yell at you is validated by your willingness to jump through hoops when I do.')

Over time, the relationship could settle and one partner becomes stuck in maroon and the other in burgundy.

One true story like this, the man got stuck in the attack or control-over-you position and developed a gambling problem -- which his wife, being comfortable at maroon, could not understand. 'I'm okay why arent you?'

The gambling got worse as his blues increased and he tried seeing other women -- ones not so good at "castle" defense perhaps?

The man feels foolish and ostracized from the relationship with his wife, cut off, not-wanted even: like having two left hands.

If they have children, some on the male side might have homosexual tendencies -- especially over three or four generations of this sort of breeding.

The attacker role develops AIDS-type problems and the defender or coached role Diabetes-type problems. The early signs could be weight decrease and weight increase respectively.

These two roles are highly-important feelings, with much pride. These are hyper-intense cores of the ego or Ids of the ego Sigmund Freud.

Many couples like this would use lots-of-work to ease the tension in their sexual war. Or if fornicating you would do the same to feel better about short relationships or one-night stands.

Since the feelings in work and sex are pseudo, the couple will never get satisfaction in work or in sex. All of these relationships are addictive, even though it would not be seen as a social problem necessarily. (The greatest song of all time according to a survey about 2005 by Rolling Stone magazine was 'I cant get no satisfaction' by The Rolling Stones.)

On a simple map of four heavy dots in the four corners of a page, Maroon is top right and Burgundy is bottom-right. That leaves Green at top-left and white at bottom-left.

These full-of-pride Ids represent another alternative relationship for couples.

In this scenario they fight intensely when not having sex. Then they use much sex to soothe the tensions. (Note the symmetry in the map as the hot-sex couple used work to soothe the sexual tension.) 'When I get that feeling I need sexual healing' -- Marvin Gaye.

However, note well, the example given assumes a steady state. In reality relationships could get more complex, depending on how many different roles in the map a person wants to play.

Maroon easily morphs into white hate, and green could easily morph into wild burgundy -- spirits across the map are not codependencies.

It all depends on family and upbringing on how changeable and complex a person's personality becomes.

On another note, milder spirits exist also. (A spirit is just a colored energy cloud that associates with particular types of behaviour, because the cloud vibrates in a similar way to the physical behaviour. A human has: love, mind, heart and body -- they all have spirits. But we tend to identify more with feelings and emotions and the spirits in them 'in the heart' only. But as we should now hopefully see, to trust in feelings that lie is a bad idea.) Mainly 3 in each quarter, including 6 black colors.

When a person can combine Green and Maroon intensely, the feeling is Royal Blue, the fighting opposite is Navy Blue.

The map is the ego fully described.

The true self however is not part of the map. Its represented by two ladders of ten feelings each. One ladder at the top of the page the other, well separated, at the bottom of the page. The two could be left, center or right.

Simply put, the ego is created by the love of war and discord, and the true self by the love of peace and harmony.
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november 2011
I could look after any woman but actually I cant because no woman would listen to me.
Also I cannot use a woman to get younger because women are ignorant. She just would not have enough faith in my ideas that I say are from God.

Belief in old age justifies hate. But if old age is caused by peoples inter-actions, then using old age in critisizm is just plain hate, and the hater can no longer hide behind the old-age-is-automatic belief.

The truth is people attack each other with little energetic thought-darts and hence they slowly kill each other and call it 'getting old'.

So their killing each other and because of general widespread ignorance people can claim they are not hurting each other. Isaiah 28:15.

I could turn this all around if I could find the right girl. God told me I could live up to 500 years and 900 would be possible.

Growing younger is really only being cured of an illness, since ageing is the onset of illness.

Illness is caused by living stupidly with the opposite sex.

Believing in automatic old age is a pessimistic dark cloud we could all do without. But stupidity is so ingrained and systemic part of culture and tradition, so it is a revolution for anyone to fight for their personal freedom, to fight to realise the truth. Fear of being alone stops most individuals from trying -- except fools like me who loved God enough to not care about trending and being popular.
FEELING YOUNGER< GETTING OLDER
This falls into the catagory spoken before that the ego or lust fools us into feeling like were winning when were in fact losing.
What can be done!?
I suppose only stopping the lust in our lives is the only answer.
Usually it is sexual lust.
God is there to answer questions and build a better life based on non-lust.
Without God It would probably be impossible.

I myself have lusted many years without realizing it. I have a problem females see as super rather than a blooper. Everyone is lusting so it stands to reason many people would have to repent of lust for it to be real, to stop the "ageing" process. I dont lust anymore. People trying to be happy is the biggest hurdle, its amazing how much pain people will accept in the name of love and marriage. I guess it is instant happiness that people desire and which they can never have -- because lust never satisfies. So were programmed wrongly and need to get re-programmed -- we need to be 'born again' as the bible puts it.
We lust based on believing in power: intensity of feeling or action or intellect. So the new way is depth of precision, is believing precision can achieve goals. There are no other ways of achieving goals only these two exist.
Bottom line: only the love of God can save us and God is extreme precision generality and vitality.

I am never going to be a star not in any way. Whats the point of gaining the whole world and losing your own soul -- as the bible puts it. On the other hand those who have the whole world stand to gain their soul if they can humble themselves.
I thought I might need a platform a soapbox from which to reach the whole world. But I cannot compromise my self, soul, to do that. I cannt do anything except to say we need to love God -- that's all the skill I have, not withstanding I came across as maybe having many skills -- that again is lust saying your a winner when your a loser.
MORE The child is what we are when we repent.
Lust also, another example, makes one see the next guy or girl as the best thing. Always the next one.
Note that Shirley Maclaine left David her soulmate for a string of meaningless sexual relationships. She tried to find meaning in each one. So 'soulmate' means very little to her then? Or 'sexual relationship' means more then it actually has to offer. Accepting David would have meant stepping down from the superstar platform, would have meant giving up sexual lust.
I am reading eckhart tolle the power of now.
Repenting of lust makes one feel as though gaining nothing, as though throwing the whole world away. But the truth is we never had anything to begin with and lust always lied to us.
What we really need is longer lifespan's better health. By stopping lust one can find it. Lust fitness is not the same as good health.
10/ may/2012 MORE: I dont know what to say to save myself from stroke or other possible nasties because of sexual lust. Nor to save us. Lust just carries a person along and to their death. Stopping lust is the only solution. But could, might, take two or more, or mass consciousness shift, awareness -- we didnt start the fire BIlly Joel. I did mention i am reading eckhart tolle the power of now. Become a retard and leave your country put on a good act: schizophrenia.
People dont want to be alone but they are alone, lust just makes them believe they are with someone. There is true 'being with someone' and false.
Your a door that means no sex at all -- as far as I can see ---- health and longevity.
You want to have my baby!? Findhorn Garden. Lets say goodbye.
Dont give me stroke, Your in my mind; dont give me heart attack, your spirit is in mine. Dont give me aids or cancer or diabetes. Dont ask me to 'deal treacherously' with you -- Malachi 2 -- as if a bad thing is a good thing. Then they say: 'as long as you love me' -- as if love can make hurting each other good.
How to make love in the truest sense.
The way to make love is to have years of 69 clitoris-only work -- first step of the trinity. At least three years (1 and a 2/7 days). This works for walls only. Doors are already supposed to be big. There I said it. I didnt know where to put it so I put it here -- perhaps the female above is a door-wall?
The female works on the knob of the penis for the same time. This means clit-knob work only for three years or more.
Based on Genesis 29:20 Jacob works seven years for rachel but they seem like a few days because of his love for her. 1:851 speeding is very high speeding 8 hours would seem like 33.8 seconds. I suppose it would include sleep and eating. Is this holy sex even possible? In this day and age then 7 years of holy sex would be a big 'do not disturb' sign -- how to manage it?
The aim is appreciable size increase.
I dont mean to put a damper on this truth. Love would find a way? Being independent of the socio-economic system would help.
Lovers these days are into giving each other pain -- what would it take to turn this around? The aboves current situation.
Consider Deuteronomy 24:5 when God advises that newly wed army men are to be given a year off free of duties to please their wives -- their is a place for more beneviolent sex. 1Cor 7: Paul speaks of due beneviolence between lovers. Malachi: she is your companion your wife of your youth so heed your spirit and dont put on a garment of violence -- companion.
I dreamt your not of my tribe. Its over.
We make plans but dont know what were doing.
Draw the new Jerusalem square: north face prophets doers of deeds need proper direction their female: loud shy warm South face: man behind the scenes pastors the unknowable man, their female: sly cunning remorseful, Eastern face: scholars the serene noble man fully dedicated to his task whatever it may be, his female: light hearted and optimistic smooth orderly and persistent, western face: the evangelist a great humorous fickle companion, his woman: blunt direct and tenacious.
North face: lion, southface: a face like a man, east face: a flying eagle, western face: a calf. If we listen to a person's holy spirit then we can tell if they are of our tribe or not instantly: better than an instant hookup. People hookup first and then make up their minds, action determining the mind. What is needed is awareness first, mind first, and then action.
I have sinned and the only thing I know how to do now is stop sinning. 'Not even the slightest hint of sin' -- NT.
You are rpobably blunt direct tenacious, and I am a scholar. Couldnt be more different, as summed up by the words fickle and orderly.
TYhere can be no compromise between God's way and man's way, one does it God's way or no way at all.
If the holy spirit is agrreement between male and female then anything can be agreed apon,including Gay sex, and a holy feeling be felt.THis is the error of Neil Diamond with his holly wholely Lord. BUt this error cannot be found when the whole soul is involved: the ten rings, the feeling of the pearl.


25july why the natural product add? Im looking for a weaker woman, not wild. For holy sex. ACtually I am seeking no sex at all because I am very strong willed in that area. I'd give up eating for a water diet if they'd let me do that also.