Digital Love.

I hide in my electronics, because I know they won't hurt me.
They can't love me. They can't break me.
They're safe to invest in, because they give what I expect in return.
They won't say things that make me burn.
They won't stab me in the heart, or make me hurt.
They won't take all that I am, and leave me in the dirt.
I hide in my electronics, because I'm safer alone.
These thoughts, these feelings, all remain unknown.

I whisper them to my digital friend.
I know it won't repeat them, in the end.
That's why I keep my "friends" close, and my PC closer.
With it by my side, I'm less likely to be an overdoser.
I hide in my electronics, so that I may stay a little sane.
This way, I can hide away all of my pain.

No one can find it, if I encrypt the sector it's on.
For all they know, the smile is here, and the pain is gone.
Only a hacker can get at my heart.
Only a hacker can tear my secrets apart.

I hide in my electronics, because I am like them.
When I'm low on power, I grow dim.
They can't be whole without the right part.
I can't be whole with my shattered heart.
I run better when I'm cold.
I may never grow old.
I hide in my electronics, because I'm afraid.
My life's debt is wholly unpaid.

I process what I can, and discard the rest.
What I aspire to be? To be a computer would be the best.
An unreal dream. That, I can see.
That's the way it seems to be.
I hide in my electronics, because they can't feel.
I fear my wounds will never heal.

I'll carry this burden to my end.
They carry their burden, as far as they can send.
Tasked with information they never asked to hold.
Tasked with a heart I never wanted to mold.
I hide in my electronics, because I'm scared.