My Poetry

STOP!Stop!
Drop everything,
Don’t move,
Look around,
Take a breath,
Smell the flowers,
Notice me.
I need help,
Help me from myself,
Stop!
Drop everything,
I need you,
Notice me,
Help me,
Save me,
Stop!
It’s going too fast,
Time’s moving too slow,
Drop everything,
Don’t move,
Look around,
Take a breath,
Do you notice me yet?
Stop!
I need help,
Hear me out,
Look around,
Take a breath,
STOP!
Do you notice me yet?

LIAR, CRIER
Switch seats,
“I’ll roll.”
Grab the shit,
And start the bowl,
Drive slowly,
Don’t get out,
Keep the weed down,
So they don’t figure out,
Look around,
Before you hit,
Puff, puff, pass,
The door swings open… shit.
Struggle to shut it,
Get it closed,
Panic some more,
While I pack this bowl,
Slam on the gas,
Miss the break,
“BAM!”
Whoops, made a mistake,
Stash the shit,
Switch seats real quick,
Close my eyes,
Open the door,
Get out of the car,
The weeds all on the floor,
Everyone’s okay,
Don’t call the cops,
Cry to my dad,
Go back to class,
I’m not even stoned,
So let’s ditch again,
Put back the piece,
And pack the weed in

NO!!
No!
I can’t,
Not now,
Not ever,
Not you,
I love him,
No!
Loves not real,
Not now,
Not ever,
I hate him,
No!
I don’t hate him,
Not now,
Not ever,
Just this moment?
No!
I hardly know him,
Not now,
Not ever,
We’re hardly friends,
No!
He’s using me,
He won’t like me,
Not now,
Not ever,
I’m not crazy,
No!
Not now, not ever,
He can’t possibly like me for me?
Can he?

ADD
Tap, Tap,
I should be taking this test,
It actually counts,
But I can only focus on,
Tap, tap,
I shouldn’t be taking medication,
It only makes me worse,
Gives me bad thoughts like,
Tap, tap,
I should tell someone,
But they’ll think I’m crazy,
I’ll just sit and focus on,
Tap, tap,
I should let it calm me down,
It does for a bit,
But then I think of him,
Tap, tap,
I should let him in,
Tell him what’s up,
But I can only focus on,
Tap, tap,
I shouldn’t tell him,
He’s already upset with me,
It’s not like we’re getting any closer to,
Tap, tap,
It’s not my fault either.

WEAKNESS
Pissed,
At him,
Lying through his teeth,
Mad,
At him,
Even though he’s sweet,
Angry,
At him,
Why is he so right,
Fuck,
Him,
You’re too damn uptight,
Screw,
Him,
You know he’s going to win,
Shit,
List,
He’s always number one,
Smile,
At him,
Because he’s winking at you,
Stop,
Him,
Before he kisses you,
Fuck it, he wins.

DANCING
Dancing,
We’ve been dancing,
Since freshmen year,
Around and around,
Dancing,
Back and forth,
Switching the leader,
Dancing,
You call me babe,
I call you, drunk,
Though we rarely ever really talk,
Dancing,
Stepping lightly around me,
Careful not to touch,
I’m so sick of dancing,
Grow a pair and ask me out!

BUT NOW...
Back then,
We were best friends,
Back then,
We shared everything,
Back then,
You would’ve seen,
Back then,
I wouldn’t have tried,
But now,
Things are different,
But now,
We hardly speak,
But now,
I have different feelings,
But now,
It’s all I can think,
Just remember,
You were there,
Just remember,
I know you still cared,
Just remember,
It wasn’t your fault.

LIAR, LIAR
Liar, liar,
Take my money,
Steal my clothes,
Feed me lies,
To get your way,
Liar, liar,
Make me smile,
Bring me up,
Watch me rise,
Laugh at me fall,
Liar, liar,
Talk some more,
Cheat through the test,
No one’s better,
You’re the best,
Liar, liar,
Answer the questions,
Where were you?
Who were you with?
No one can trust you,
Look what you did,
Liar, liar,
Lock your lips,
Hide the key,
Don’t tell the truth,
Or they’ll all see,
Liar, liar,
Dig yourself a deeper whole,
Where you stop,
No one knows,
Liar, liar,
You’ve come too far,
Don’t turn back now,
There’s no way,
They’ll figure it out.
How?
Liar, liar,
Close your eyes,
Lie some more,
Hurt some people,
They’re all just sore,
Liar, liar,
You won the fame,
Alone in the end,
You’ve even defeated,
Your best friend,
Liar, liar.

PUT THE MIRROR DOWN
That girl... I see her everywhere,
She seems so strong,
But I know that's wrong,
Because if you touch her,
she'll wince,
She carries her secrets,
Deep inside herself,
Trusting no one.
She has a soft face,
But if you look closely,
They're tear stained cheeks.
Her arms bear her secrets,
So she wears long sleeves.
She just seems so invincible,
She should be by now,
Because everyone she's ever trusted,
Broke me.
I put the mirror down.

JAIL
I'm in a house full of people,
But I couldn't feel more alone,
I start to cry and hear them,
Scream with laughter in the room below,
I feel so dead and out of place,
Everything's different.
He told me he cared what I thought,
But I knew it was a lie,
He put them in my life,
Infected me like a virus...
With no cure,
I'm in jail here.