Life as I lived it

I thought people may like to know more about me. About how I have lived my life. How I wished I had lived my life. How I wish things could have changed. Some of the chapters may be hard for some people to read. I haven't had the best life but neither have I had it the worst. If at any time it gets to be too much for you to continue reading feel free to stop. I am not saying I have had the worst life. But I haven't had the best of lives either. Some people have had it worse I know so maybe I should not be complaining about it but I just wanted to tell people how difficult living with depression can be. How depression can affect people.
Feel free to message me with comments. I am pretty much an open book honestly. I am not afraid to tell about myself. All that I have been through has made me a stronger person and I hope it encourages others who have thought about giving up and quitting not to. Quitting life is not worth it no matter how hard you have it. Like I said I didn't have the best life. There are certain things I regret in my life. I made some stupid mistakes in my life. I am in no way perfect. I am in no way the smartest of people either. I have hit rock bottom in my life plenty of times and thought of giving up I will not deny that because I would be lying. No lies will be told in this. Every word will be truth. Keep that in mind as you read this story. Certain parts of this are not going to be in great detail as I don't have the best of memories.