A Long Time Lost

The words flow from my lips,
Like a knife thrown from my hand,
These words are killing us both,
As I list off each demand,
The strength inside me is weak,
As I realize I can barely speak,
These words drag me down,
As I hear their scratchy sound,
I swear I can hear the breaking of hearts,
As I let loose these knife shaped darts,
It's hurts me to let you go,
Hurts me to finally show,
These feelings i've held on to,
I finally figured out what to do,
I had to tell you,
It was getting too deep in me,
You needed to see,
This hate inside of me,
The things you were doing,
I couldn't stand to see,
I sat on the side lines wondering,
What you would eventually do to me,
You needed to grow up,
And look the fuck around,
Your eyes were shut,
Your ears weren't hearing any sound,
My heart was breaking in the fifth year,
And I never let you see one tear,
It broke my heart to watch this happen,
Maybe later we can begin again,
Because right now,
It kills me to be your friend,
You know who you are,
It's stated as clearly as the stars,
I'm breaking free of this curse,
Getting away from this hurt,
I still care about you,
And everything you do,
Just be safe while i'm not there,
Don't let go yet,
Because I still care,
You don't just wake up one day,
And wish for it all to be gone,
I needed to do this for me,
So I could get everything done,
You were holding me back,
Because I based all my plans on you,
And that made me flakey,
It made me a lot like you,
I got a little scared,
A little too deep for me,
But I know you're not going to see,
The things I saw everyday,
Those images will never fade away,
I'm still here,
I still care,
My dear,
I will never vanish into thin air,
Cat you were my bestfriend,
For six years,
You were there for me,
Through all of the tears,
But right now I need my space,
My time to try and erase,
The things i've seen you do,
But in the end I still cove you!