Dehumanized

Dehumanized



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Copyright© 2011



Conversely members of our society may be shun or are the scapegoat of a city full of poverty. Raymond became a victim of his own society, abandon, and confined by his family.  He uses his ability to climb over adversity in life with his own perception of his own struggle to the pursuit of happiness. Raymond was one special man and never gave up when he was comforted with adversity.  He is credulous to know that he was gone to make it someday.











It was January 22, 2002; the day that Raymond injured himself on the job related to an accident which became an unfortunate situation.  It was of sadness in his life that he lost his job and had no income and no way to support his family. His injuries were shockingly irreversible though he had a pinch nerve and suffered a whip flash. The last time being on that job for four years brought many good memories from traveling with the company to the friends that he had laughter with although, he could not say his good bye to the diverse friends from working with his coworker and fooling around doing nothing. Painfully he was going to sue the dam shit out of the company for his injuries and compensation of pay being on the job. Even though the law suit would raise the companies insurance he needed to be paid for loss of wages. Dextro Inc; shipping and receiving company could not afford paying out that much money for workman compensation to a employee with such qualification, so they fired him unnoticed while he was suffering bed written at home. Mr. Davis went to his own doctor for treatment to attend to his injuries. There was uttering every time in Human Resource at Dextro Inc office about Raymond’s restriction and the time off his doctor gave him from his job. Raymond’s boss refused to accept the restrictions and demand him to go back to work because they felt that there was nothing wrong with his injures with their decision they were frivolous. Dextro Inc; was avoiding to pay a man who struggle to maintain his life style although everything else had crumble in his life. Mr. Davis lost his family and the only thing left he had was his job. He searches for an attorney to help him with his lawsuit. The legal procedure would take him a year but he needed financial help. No job, no way to fight his case to pay his attorney fees if he won the case. The attorney will charge him a fee if the was a settlement to be won. Problems acquired after the time of his injuries he was followed around by a private investigator who work for the company. Raymond on day parks his car at a local park at One o’clock in the morning and slept in his car. The sun roof was open and he dose off in the park only because his effort to sue left him homeless. As he was sleeping a car park a distance away and a man sprinkle a powder of anthrax in his car. It was a command from the company to kill Mr. Davis furthermore to stop his lawsuit. Raymond had incriminating evidence against the company. Raymond got highly sick and for the encounter with the private investigator he did know why someone was out to hurt him. He suffered a lung virus that cause blockage in his lungs. Hospitalize with his health fatally leaving him Raymond escape the hospital with an illness. Raymond doubtfully drove back to Michigan with no help driving back to his desuetude home town after dealing with death. He finally arrived home from a ten-hour drive coughing up blood from his lungs. From Atlanta he secured his self being living back at home compared from being homeless stage which was a setback in his life living in Atlanta. Although the decision was made lay off people at Dextro Inc. Because the company did not formally have any plans for him anymore. Inflation had a hold on the company which made the decision in his situation and he was homeless. Unemployment forced him to taking a temporary job which was Raymond’s only option. Including, many corporations where downsizing which causes economic structures too increase rates on gas, housing, and financial rates for some people in getting loans. Raymond, pull up in his mother driveway with his 1985 Volvo which had a sun roof, a turbo engine which could out run a Bentley. It was an act of showing off racing with his car as he watched a white man report him to the police and though he took on the challenge ill from what they did him he race him. Raymond got away clearly from the man in the Bentley so that there was no ticket involve during his trip back home. He played a childish game with his life dealing with the angry of the rich forks that cause him to be poor. Even though this man didn’t cause his problem it was that he had power to a man of lesser class in a poor situation. Raymond opened his car door and slammed it shut. He walks toward the pathway to the fence gate and unlatch the front of the gate to greet his mother.  She was nowhere in sight to be seen in the front yard of the house.  He walks up the steps pass the wooden gate on the porch and looked for her truck.  Even though, he had the key to the house of the door in his hand. He reluctantly calls out her name, “mama, a mama,” to see if she was in the neighborhood. Raymond placed the house key into the door which had a old wooden frame.  Luckily he did not have to worry about the steal armor guard door for the locks where broken.  Raymond’s mother who was known as Mother Dear was in the house asleep not aware that he was back from Georgia with an illness. Raymond let her sleep as his notice her lying in the bed. It was just about the hour for her to clock in to work. Hours pass and she called out, “Is there anyone in the house” and Raymond said, “just me mama”. He and her talk for the time until she left home to drive to work at her nursing home occupation.  Raymond ask “how are doing” calmly worried about occupying her space while he was chancing his stay living back with her. He put his arms around her missing her and missing her home cooking for it was the unforgettable part that he loves. Mother dear frantically moved about gathering her working items for her job.  “Mama what is going on in the neighborhood, why are you not glad to see me”, she had nothing to say because she was rushing to get out of the house. Raymond asked her well before she was preparing to leave him there alone at the house. Her little baby boy was hurt and couldn’t worry about Raymond. His youngest brother was sick and hospitalize with a broken leg, so she couldn’t talk to Raymond. His mother would not explain in detail of what went on in the house until she had a day off and could attend to his youngest brothers’ injuries.  As he look around in the old Sears Roebuck house with its lead walls coat with white paint where he grow up in and thought in a bewildering way. He once washes those walls off many of times as young man. A thought crossed his mind as if his mother gave up on the house all explained in her struggle of being a single mother. He could see nothing was done to maintain the fixing of the house.  Raymond walks gently across the wooden floors so not to make the floor crack for the house was old build in the 1959.  He goes into the kitchen and opens the door and sees the figuration and to find some food for something eatable for his hunger.  He glances at what was nothing but an empty frig with process cheese and potatoes.  He closes the metal beast that which held the source of energy to stop his growling stomach and said “There is no food in this kitchen,” he said with a slum look on his face.  Irritated and stuck and needed figure out how and what went wrong with his mother. It was a lingering thought until an answer he could not get until his mother’s arrival back home from the nursing home job.  Raymond pulled out a cigarette with only one intention to relax.  The cigarette stops him for wanting on any food for the time being.  He walks out on the front porch and inhales the minty flavor and exhale the smoke from his lung and he cough up some blood.  He inhales a second time without pulling on the cigarette to remember what home would smell like. The importance of his condition was out of hand and he knew that could be repaired at his home town.  He though as he pulled on cigarette what type of problem they were having and what has change about is mother. Mr. Davis was still of need of medical help and alone since the long trip back in town and waiting for his mother’s return was ongoing.  Raymond knew that she was a very private person but, lack the faith to talk about what was bothering her. His mother would hold some much pain inside that you would not know it.  A line that her children would not cross or ask of her.  The pain that she was felling while raising her children would not be cross for her as if it were a matter of life or death. A guilty pain that she carried inside and outside from which the beauty she holds so secretive that as children for she was known as Mother Dear. A mistress and nothing considers as nothing else for she was the head of the house hold. A harsh voice inside of her deeply inside of her mind was telling her that she could have done better for her children and most of all for herself.  There were days that she wish she didn’t have any children, so scared of failure that not knowing and having the incite that her ancestors would come back to haunt her. Her memories remind her of the struggle that they fought for in a oppress state such as Mississippi. Unlike Raymond he lost mostly everything beside his life venturing off as a young man to found himself in this life.







Raymond had decided to get into his car almost as to chase after his hunger.  He went to the nearest restaurant for an order of a burger comb and soft drink, including a newspaper.  He pulled back into the driveway and park so that he would not be bother.  His car was his office and privatize place where he could be alone outdoors.  Raymond needed to catch up with what was going on in the city so he eats his food while he read to pass the time away.  Hymns of praise where echoing in cabinet of the car without Raymond even knowing.  The good spirits of angels were crying out for the decision he had made leaving Georgia, leaving was not his only option.  He could not see them although their lighthearted presence which was there telling him “Fight to get to get you job back.” His pleasant aura of good northern gentle presence was presentable to Georgian when he lived there. He met southern people who agreed that he should not had left Georgia since he needed to regroup while living in quick sand. The newspaper was endless full with metaphysical events political and government issues that Michigan was having. Raymond turns pages after pages which was periodical news.  He was peering to find good and pungent topics to read while in the only piece of classic of a car that reminds him of Georgia being on his feet. A rustproof and an iron of steel metal car were very difficult to repair. He saw it as his sanction of collateral.  It was scorching and muggy year and all Raymond could do is regress on how difficult it was in the area of Flint of finding employment. An easy win for the city and the population when there was employment in Michigan during 1963, when the city was in its prime time. It was a revival to him when the reparation of him receiving his equivalent for educating himself would catch up with him when the school mails his diploma to him. That amendment was a fresh of air and was good for him because his old self was putrefied and out of control. He was pasty and gone bad for many years he prowl without any education. Purged he was with the changing of his address before he moved from one state to another. All Raymond had to do was to find him a home and pew to lie on because he slept in his car so much that he need spiritual guidance.  He was homeless and was in great distress, rejected from his formal family members furthermore he had lost his financial stability.  Raymond was drowsy from the long drive back home. Although the long drive made him feel so exhausted, reading the paper was his way of staying awake.  He never made amends with his relatives who live in Atlanta not saying his “Good-Bye’s,” but promised to return back when ever his life get better. Raymond placed a musical CD into his car radio player; Curtis May Field his new release, “Change.”  The music was delighting, refurbishing his soul because he could relate to the wise songs he was listening too.  It restores and rouses him to keep changing to be a good man. Relinquished by the music he felt the galore of the music and the nix of the sound of the neighborhood was out of his mind.  It was only Raymond and the remembrances of his of blundering life which was in his hands to change.  Hour went by as the sun started to set and Raymond was in and out of his car unpacking his clothes and files that he drove back with from Georgia.  He stops for a moment and glance at his decoration hanging from his rear view mirror, and smell the redolent that was pouring from it.  The art on the decoration, which symbols a race of oppress minorities climbing over a wall for their freedom. It was a scented ordainment he bought for his car that was from the south, which was a part of a black struggle. He was in recoil, afraid and self-aware of why he took a step backwards to move forward in his life. There in Atlanta he was always asking for money after the loss of his job.  He knew leaving what was known as a good environment living in a state that can provide you with a job what was a good life was neither to him a bad choice.  It was like hell going back to a place that did not have any social structure and the black men act like animals. Either you were killing someone or you were in a robbery.  The city Flint is the closest city to being the capital murder state of America compared to Detroit It was like the west when they were riding wagon wheel buggy’s pulled by horses trying to survive.









As Raymond waits for Mother Dear. The image of a face appeared on the lamp symbolizing a casual taste of art. The glossy wooden lamp showed his shadow; the lamp had a story to it but Raymond was only home for one tick of day.  There sits a spiral wooden lamp with no lamp shade on the coffee table clutter with items addressed to its owners. So you know that there was a family living in this sear roebuck house. Letters, envelops and dust which explains that there were none attendance of cleaning which was considering not too important. The lamp was savage from the curb of a empty house just as Raymond, he resemble the lamp that was thrown away and reused. Unlike the lamp that guides Christianity in the bible, Raymond was dehumanized. Nothing or no one could up lift his spirit; the fight he had been against the supernatural and being poor. His faith had diminished due to all what was wrongly done to him. A curse may be or an unknown living spirit that kept finding its way into his life. However with his name which is Germanic that means counsel or protection. He looks for advice for his own sake to prevent evil spirit like the curse which was causing so many problems in his passage to an eternal life with other god fearing people. The cures, of the black widow and finding he had placed a spell on him. This species was from his domestic women of his country in the states. America has a problem with their ethics and moral because the woman today are just killing and leaving their spouses for dead. Until the black widow came alone in Raymond average secluded life alone as he was he was just a prey for her. Just like milk spilled on the floor. His life was shatter by her kiss of death. She cursed him for years to come until he was dead. Batter and scoop away with only a garbage bag of clothes he deserted her because her attraction was deadly. If he would had stayed the unthinkable would had made her eternal a believer of a female race fulfilling of what is better them men. No one could even persuade her emotion for a dark horizon only surrounds her path. Her shadow was a mist of wounded souls in which she made lovers fall for her. Rockelle was a heartless and cold hearted person. She had cross his mind during his stay with his mother. After his mother finally, senses that sometime was wrong with Raymond.  She notices his hands were shaking as he left the kitchen. “Raymond,” she said to him the second day of being home, “Are you still drinking.” Profoundly of what she meant was that he was still hitting the bottle of booze again. Raymond showed no action to the comment and the though came across him again all he wanted is to stop think about his marriage.









































In Chicago Illinois; the windy city and were the greatest team that the city of Illinois has which is the Chicago cubs also, has the best football team in the world The Bears. Dwelling in Chicago in its sister county of La Grange Illinois was were Raymond’s ex-wife and his two youngest boys live. Rockell  Birther which was a dozen of rose until her divorce to Raymond. Scorn and emotional of the failure of her marriage help her to reunion with which was her home. Days and nights was a misadventure transit moving from her grandmother’s place into her own which was the challenge for her. As Maxwell plays over the radio in the moving van, jazz was her thing. She moved into a three story apartment with two bed rooms with marble counter tops with a microwave included, a washer and drier. She bought her own sofa and dresser to full in the empty apartment also, in the back of the apartment was a fire escape. The apartment was expensive that the rent she paid for she could afford a new house in the suburb. The cubic square apartment was enough for her kids to play with their toys and be a part of the community.  On a day of sorting all the dishes she watches her sons play with the toys that their father gave to them. She always looks at the toys and wonder if her situation would be grand if their father was in their life. Rockelle son’s always asked about their father and if he was coming back. “Jay said, “Momma is daddy going to live with us.” “No boy! Your father can’t even barely help his self, how would you think he is gonna help us.” “Look Jay I will not tolerate your father being with us. He doesn’t care about himself or you so, if you see him it is when he can be there for you.” In Rockell eyes Raymond was a dead beat dad when she first met him and he was still one a far as she knew. Breaking the news to jay and Ishmael, Raymond’s two sons were difficult that they would never see him. The love for her son’s and the misfortune of a marriage with Raymond was far more not important because there was spousal abuse with a man who wasn’t in touch with reality. It was more shit for her to bear with him. She had given him all that she could of her. She given him space in their home, her time, she even given him boys, and her life.  On one unexpected day during the tedious slanderous days they were having that evening Rockelle try to share some thoughts with him while they were together. She shares with  him some comic clippings and gave him a roses but it was really not for him. Rockelle was having an affair with her coworker, childish of her try to explain that she was having an affair with another man and putting her marriage endanger. She took advantage of her husband‘s neglectful ways and unromantic life style because he work during the time she was alone. She made it worst just by staying in the marriage during her affair so she kept her friend a secret until she could plan out her get away with him. A runaway bride she had it plan all out. She was going to keep her affair and have a baby by this new man and leave Raymond. Rockelle was tired of Raymond and was ready to sign the divorce papers so her inglorious marriage wouldn’t fall back upon her family in Chicago.  She had a hidden agenda to not let him see those boys. Raymond would call often to try to get the boys but, Rockelle wouldn’t relinquish them only for her safety that nothing would happen to them in his care. Raymond called “hello Rockelle is there any possible way that could get the kids so they could see my mother”? Having fire in her eye she couldn’t believe that Raymond tried to get the boys knowing what he had done to her was wrong. “Raymond, I don’t think that is a good ideal. You should visit them here but, you cannot stay with us. You know Rockelle I am still there fathered and they need to see me so we can bond together. If you didn’t hate me as much since was a bad husband learns to forgive me,” “The relationship between us then would be better.  Knowing I was wrong and suffer for everything. It was a bad marriage being with you. My father was not in my life either but tried to be a good father.  My finances has become less to count on for myself Rockelle, I lost my health care and became homeless since when it was two income when we were married. Please don’t let me go throw this not with the kids. Raymond you can’t see the boys when you choose to I have things to do with them. I have those boys taking piano lessons and one day when they get older they are going to military school. So don’t worry, they really don’t need you.” In a rage Raymond hung the phone up and decides to try another time. He wanted to make sure that his mother was able to see her grandchildren on her time. Rockelle would never step a foot in Flint, Michigan finding out that it was a dangerous town for children to grow up in for her children. The relationship between Raymond and Rockelle had many days of fighting knowing that Rockelle was scorn by him.











Raymond missed many holidays spending time with his boys that he began to be putrefied of what was missing in his life. Raymond was being cranky toward his brother Jim and his sister Sam. Even though they both live threw their adulthood he only loved her one woman that rejected him. Raymond did not want his children to become a statistic like he was growing up without a father. His adult life was spent with his mother who was divorce. He was in a suspended animation quarreling to grow up in his mother’s perspective. Only so she could see her own sons grow up, but compared to their relationship she only saw him as a ten year old son when he was a sweet heart. Raymond’s image of his sons life similar to his with his mother would be unlikely a difficult one. “Raymond,” mother said, when are you going to use that thing? Momma, why do you talk like that? That is embarrassing for you to ask me about my sex life. Well, she said, “I want some grandchildren. “Mama I need a job to better myself”. “Don’t you want the best for me and by the way I can barely take care of the kids I had by those woman I’ve been with”. Unfortunately, Raymond had done what Mama said and ended up with children by four different women. In his case he didn’t want the same for his sons to be a statistic and knowing that they had a better way to live with their mother.