Losing faith

Last night, in the dark, I lost my faith.
It wasn't that strong to begin with.
But now I have a hollow space, a loss I cannot quantify.
What filled before has drained away.
Should I be happy, sad or am I just indifferent.
Am I evil, do I want to be free?

The clock was counting off the seconds tick tock tick tock.
There was no great revalation, no flash of realisation.
Just the knowledge of great delusion.
Good or bad, right or wrong.
It's still there but the codes have changed.
Should I seek for a new refill or leave the space?

No longer a sheep I've left the flock.
The road ahead has been stripped of signposts.
Now I shall be my own pathfinder.
It scares me of things to come.
I may find inner peace or greater torment.
If I take this leap can I ever return?