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I am not sure when I wrote this It was defiantly, more then 4 years ago. |
Not much has really changed Life in this world is not what I thought it would be A world of joy and love i see a baby girl with wires and needles through her body why does she have them running through her? Why are the doctors pricking her? Will the child survive their torment? Are these things necessary for her to live? On-going tears flow off her cheeks expressing agonizing pain. When will someone stop her suffering ? Parents and those who care want this toddler to Laugh Cry and explore the world like any other kid. She begins to go through life Learing to Talk Walk and think for herself Knowing what is right from wrong. There are diffcult tunnels in life lies ahead of her at such a young age. Having these paths leading in mixed preceptions of life and death. What does she do? She can't do anything. Afraid of someone hurting her physically and emotionally. She runs to her home where she consider it to be a safe place To shelter her from the harmful things people did. Her parents are always there for her Showering her with their love. As she got older All the teasing and yelling become more frequent around her The place she once thought was safe was not Her parents changed All the nagging Pushing Hollering was too much to bare She wants to get away. She asks herself why do people mock and shout? She is always quiet Too scared to say a word Why does it seem that way ? Is everyone so selfish and greedy that no one knows she is even there? She does not want to disturb others who feel the world revolves around them. She wants a friend. Someone who experiences the same feelings she does. Being alone and hopeless. She finds new ways to deal with her pain from the past. She remembers the feeling of having the love and power of God by her side. She keeps in mind that the Lord is by her side and always has been. She begins to return to the hands of the almighty and feels as if she can go on with her life without a feeling of being worthless and unwanted, she sees her reason to be in this world. Jesus wanted her to spread God's message and be the best person she can be. But turning to the hands of God, sometimes does not seem enough. She often questions what will become of her. Her usage of turning to the Lord helps her pass the days of sorrow and loneliness away. After seeing her past and present nothing has really changed. Even if she tried the only thing that has changed is the environment around her. Her feelings toward others will always stay the same. She does not want anyone who will wound her or play games with her heart. All she wants is to be accepted by someone,somewhere somehow for who she is and what she has become. |