Lets Bleed Out the Memories

At first I thought

My tears had turned to blood;

But then I realized....

They were foggy and red

With memories that pained.

Memories that do me no good.


You were my light,

And you were my joy.

We managed

To be so grown up;

To stay friends

Despite our feelings.


But you have no idea

How alone I feel inside.

You got to go back to her,

Where do I go?


I have nothing and no one now.

I tried to forget that I ever loved you.

That we were always only friends,

No greater lie could ever be told.


Oh dear sweet love I felt for you...

I still feel for you!


That love had flipped itself inside out.

And it seems that now

It has a bladed hide.

Because I can feel it cut me

Every time I look at you.


With that look of happiness on my face...

It's true you know.

That really is happiness;

I'm still happy to be around you.


But deep inside I can feel

That jagged exterior of love

Cutting me deep.

I wish that love could finally make me bleed!


So that I would bleed out all my memories.

Of love and of loving you,

But I fight too hard to tell my self that I don't love you

But even in this denial, I can't seem to let you go