bloody goodbyes

all he NEEDS to know is that i LOVE him</3

i love him alot more than you could imagine, but i wont tell him, in fear of losing him, afraid of commitment hes stuck, because he doesnt know what to do, yeah this will not be, but we like to play pretend, never-ending love i have for him, and he doesnt even notice, so its not like it matters, my hearts says go when my guts tells me no, not knowing who to listen to i write on my arm, streams of red ink running down my arms, i cry out in pain, but no one hears me, im all alone, never to be noticed, a pee-wee in the big league, no one pays attention and im done, i cut my wrist one last time, and write my bloody goodbye.... i love y...