The turmoil

Since, the last evening,

My mind is going through a turmoil,

At night, I could'nt sleep,

Restless, bringing my temper, to boil.



Hiding my pain, fighting within me,

Venting all my anger, on my little darling,

With my mind fixed, body doing chores,

Messing up everything, gazing, blank at the door.



Stressed, I was gorging on food,

Now, even the feeling in my body, is no good.

Mind says calm down, let god handle this,

Have complete trust, surrender completely to 'Him'.



The very next moment, 'it' (mind) sprangs up,

And asks, what to do, and how?

I dont want, ' this ' thing to happen,

How should I act now?



Where is the trust gone?(in god)

About which, loudly I used to talk,

Boasting, of my complete faith in him(god),

Duality has stuck, when, I am ' IN ' ?



I will have to, win over this war within me,

I am mortal, so is the situation I am in,

Let me handover, the reigns of my life, to  ' HIM'(god),

Sit back, relaxed, and watch the film.