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Bittersweet Abandonment -- that's my fear. Ever since that boy.. the first one I loved. Yes, I believe that's when it started. Heartache -- I've felt it many times before. But never so strong. When my fear is at its worst, I am like this. Jealousy -- yes. I'm jealous. But not because you're with another girl. It's because it feels like she's stealing you away. Heartbreak -- another thing I've felt many times before. But it's never pierced my insides so much. And I'm afraid I'll start piercing the outside. Paperclips -- my choice of weapon. Other than the words I throw at myself, of course. And the memories I force myself to agonize over. Memories -- so precious, beautiful. But when people leave me, they turn into something scary. Can't lose my memories, don't want to. But can't remember, it hurts too much. Soulmates -- that's what I believe we are. Because we have the truest love of all. But do you feel that way too? Hopeless -- I feel so lost right now. Lost everyone, myself too. Save me. Love -- bittersweet, so bittersweet. Sweet in its bloom, and bitter in it's cling. If I let go of you I'd die. Numb. That's how I feel right now. Come back to me. Make me whole again. |