In My Heart

How can I forget the person right in front of me?
He looks at me with his bright eyes full of the love that we used to share.
He walks by me holding the hand of another girl.
He stands and stares at the sky the way we used to do together.
He sleeps with his eyes shut, dreaming of another person.
He’s right in front of me, and yet it feels like he is a million miles away.

I loved him so much, to the point that I would die for him.
I thought we would spend all of our lives together, until the end of time.
I used to dream of our lives together even after we died.
I could stand by him all day, never leaving his side.
I gave him my everything and trusted him with my heart.
But somehow all those feelings left and what is left is an empty memory of what used to be.

I wish I could press the reset button.
I wish I could press the button to take us back to the beginning.
Back to the beginning of our love.
Back to when we shared a love stronger than the Sun’s heat.
Back to when we first met.
That way, we won’t make the same mistake.
And this time we’ll stay together forever.

But how can I?
All I can do now is try to forget the person who I loved so much.
The person who I gave my all to.
The person who took my heart and ripped it into a million pieces.
Ripped it then threw it on the ground and stepped on it.
The person who caused me the greatest pain imaginable.
And no matter how much he hurt me…

I still love him.
Because that is what love is.
And I can never forget my first love.
I can never forget all the feelings I felt for the first time.
The feelings I felt when I was with him.
My heart is not the same.
But somehow, he’s still in there.
And I’m sure, that in some way,
I am in his heart as well.