Lost

I've been on this
road
road of darkness
I see my fear
I let my tears fall
I've been on this
road
road of hate
I see my anger
I let it show
I've walked
for miles
years
I cry for help
knowing no one
will come
I think
think of what
to next
I wonder
wonder if
anyone hears me
I've been on this road of pain
I feel it
Feel the burn
in my blood
as i take a
gun to my
head
As i pull the
trigger I
think of my
family
Mother is
what i think of
as I fall
I no longer feel
the pain
No longer feel the anger
For once I'm
happy
I see gate
gate made of
pearls
I enter
as i enter I
look down
I let the tears
fall as I
see
See the people
gathered in a
church
A church filled
with sadness
and guilt
I see
see a coffin
a coffin with
a familiar face
a familiar face
with a bullet
hole in
her head
my mother
cries as
i cry
realizing
i will
be for
eternity walking
this road
road if sadness