Turmoil

My mind is in a turmoil.
I can't get it to uncoil.
It's twisted and knotted,
It's like I forgot it.
I can't go on in this state.
I've got to clear the slate.
It's you, not me, tangled.
I'm in it too, mangled.
My heart isn't clear.
My ears can't hear.
The words, the feelings, the sounds
all in my head anxiety abounds.
I'm helpless against it.
I'm lost within it.
I can't find the way back.
I can't follow the track.
My music in my head
is black and withered and dead.
I'm in a daze, going nowhere.
My thoughts are scattered everywhere.
There is no hope.
I'm insane, I cope.
You've got to go away.
I can't bear it if you stay.
The end is here,
that is perfectly clear.
I'm gone, I'm done, I'm over
spread my ashes in the clover.