Hopelessness

I'm in a sea of hopelessness,
why do I deserve all that has happen.
Why do I always get less,
it seems to happen again and again.

I have felt unbelievable pain,
both with my body and mind.
With all of this it's hard to be sane,
with all of this it's hard to be kind.

Life is never and will never be amazing,
I have reached my limit.
My fire in my stomach is blazing,
I could go off any minute.

I have nothing,
there is nothing here for me.
Me, there is nothing coming for,
There is nothing I can see.