Dear Davin

Dear Davin,
I'm not too sure why I'm writing to you in particular but I just found out something pretty shocking and I really want to tell you because you always seem to know what to say and I really want you here so I could have one of your hugs but you're in Kilkenny and my Mum has taken my phone so I'm writing a letter. Very old fashioned but lets hope I send it. I'm normally really bad at sending letters plus I have to find out your address too!
Anyways my Mum just told me something. I'm not too sure how to feel about it.
I'll write out exactly what she said:
Mum: "And just so you don't think I'm going behind your back, I'm ringing your Dad tonight because I realised the GCSE's (English JC equivalent) are this year so you won't be put in a lower year. I'm seriously going to talk about you going over there for the next 2 years because it's just not working with us here. And I'm not going to bring the boys (my cousins) over here with all this shit going on. So you think about that."
I really don't know what to feel. I'm kinda happy in sense that it'd be a new school (I have hardly any friends in school) and that I'd be away from my Mum.
And I'd jump for the chance, if it wasn't for you and all the other amazing friends I have here. The thing is though, I'm hardly going to see you here anyway, maybe now and again if I sneak out but I just can't take what I get at home anymore. Yet, the thing is, I'm not sure I'll ever see you guys if I go stay with my Dad unless any of you are holidaying in London. Also, my Dad struggles to afford CTYI now so I don't know whether we'll be able to afford it if I go live with him. That's not definite, just a probability.
The thing is, my friends from CTYI are the only thing keeping me here. And as I said, I probably won't see you anyways. Also my Mum probably won't let me go to CTYI this year anyways, just in spite and she doesn't think it's healthy how I rely on CTYI.I'm still working things out in my head because I literally only just heard this news.
I'm not sure what I'll do but then again I find myself hoping that my Mum's being serious. But I don't want the stress of starting a new school in my exam year. I'm just pretty much writing out my thoughts.
Right now, you'll be on the train and it's funny 'cause when you're here your hugs, when I'm upset, overwhelm me yet I want one right now.
Anyways, thank you so much for today. You and Adam coming down meant alot to me and I'm so glad I got to see you. because to be honest, I don't know when I'll see you next.I'm really sorry to drop my problems on you in a letter but I had not other way of contacting you.
I miss you so much and I really wish you only lived down the road. I love you so much, I know I only met you a while back but I can't imagine not having you as a friend. I promise not matter what happens,I'll keep in touch and we'll stay friends for a long time even if it means writing letters. I promise.
I realise by now, I've wrote almost 6 pages. Small pages. I think you should know this is the longest letter I've ever wrote. Miss you a lot.
Zoey. xxx

Thanks so much for everything and coming into my life.
I never sent this letter.