Journey

The cries of the roaring thunder echo in the bottom of my mind as it pairs up with the deathly flashes of love poisoned lighting that crash at the end of my fallen soul. My last hopeful spirit is drowned out by the swirling pain of the heartbreak hurricanes that tear my courage apart piece by piece till it is no more. Everything is lost in the shadows of sorrow keeping everything hidden for eternity. Darkness surrounds my soul with its horrid storm of hate and pain that break me down to dust from the inside. Every dream is over and every wish is shattered. Love is nothing and pain is the only thing you feel. Hope is gone and joy has been lost forever. Rain and wind. Tears and Wishes are lost in this never ending nightmare. Shadows plaster the land and sinister clouds cover the sun leaving what use to be earth bare and empty. Silent’s all around and no one dares to move. Soon everything is gone and over so everyone’s time together is finally over. Beams of light slowly creep back and the shadows melt away. I soon find love and hope. I find the place where everything is good and true. I find the place where you can only be you. It’s the place where nothing will ever hurt you. It’s the place I could greet my loved ones as they take the peaceful journey to the land they call their happy place to their dream land off earth to the place they can finally call home. This place they will find at their own time but me myself it took try after try to find. This magical land was hidden till I finally accepted the past that can’t be changed. At this place I found my heart that seemed to be lost so long ago I found the hope I lost to young I found the spirit that was once crushed but now restored. I found the dreams I abandoned so many times and found the wishes I thought would never come true. I found everything I thought would be hidden forever. Best if all I found the feeling of love I once pushed away and refused to feel. Everything is back and fresh as ever before. I feel like everything is good again, that there are no more reasons for tears and that sorrow is only a distance memory. The sea of love crashes on to me and I feel the care everyone once tried to show me like a tidal wave crashing to the shore. Everything is peaceful even though I’m alone. I’m able to think of the good in life and feel the things I should have felt an awful long time ago. I’m allowed to guide my loved ones through the obstacle called life that they travel through. I’m able to shine the light on them I never felt I’m able to make a difference on their lives and help them through it the best I can. I can watch them from above and make sure they’re never abandoned. I can make their lives everything mine wasn’t. I can and I will make a difference. I can do all these things from a little piece in the sky I like to call…

My heaven