seeker

I scaled the great mountains…
I plunged into the holy rivers…..
I worshiped the rocks like billy-o…
I even tried to look for you in men, similar to me…
I read, I thought, I listened, I tried accepting….
But you were always too distant to me!!!!

My qualms grew profounder….
But I was petrified to disagree…
Your preachers were around me…all clued-up so imperfectly!
Their erudition frightened me of the downfall…my fall!
I wanted to know me, through you!
What is you? What is me?
What is us?......and all the whys!

I know you can’t answer….you are too distant!!
I can’t question to your preachers…..you made them distant too!!
I must bring the light alone….cause it is my darkness lone!
So I walk across these lines of faith and believe….
Forgive me if I dishonour you….cause I don’t intend to!

I wish to find you…where they say!
I wish to adore you…..as they do!
Cause my doubts are trifling, as to their devotion for you!!
But till then you are too distant to me, as I am to you.