"stars"

to lie awake and stare at the stars
and to think of a place in the distance so far
makes falling asleep so much better where you are
but yet i feel sick when i think of your face
i want to spread your body all over the place
and make you disappear forever without a trace
with you gone ill be as happy as can be
as i watch you sink to the bottom of the sea
ill take back my life away from you bitch
ill find happiness it will be my one wish
ill find someone theyll love me for me
and not manipulate me for everyone to see
a person as crazy as me with a fucked up past
and wont fuck me over like everyone else has
shell lie next to me to gaze at the sky
and no matter what shell never ask why
shell always be there if i start to cry
the things i want are not much to ask
these are somethings they really need to grasp
a deep connection must really be there
and their actions have to show me they care
i cannot look for it it just has to appear
but it not happening is my only one fear
and all my prayers go to a god that dont hear
i just wish this pain will go away
i mast take back whats mine thats all i can say
ill find her one day in a distance so far
and shell lay by my side as we gaze at the stars