Feelings

Why do I feel this way?

It doesn't feel right at all.

It's like a monster inside of me.

It eats away at my feelings.

Making its way from the inside to the out.

I wish I didn't feel this way.

I've NEVER felt this way.

One thing I can say is that it's about you.

It's always about you.

All that's left is bitterness and anger.

It's not like me at all.

Really, it's not.

When I try to explain things to you, in the end, you make me feel inferior.

Just as if I was over reacting, but I know that you would act the same way.

It's silly, isn't it?

It's okay.

It's nothing.

It may be that way to you but to me, it's everything.

Because truth is, you're everything to me.

It's only because I can't stand the thought of losing you.

In the past, I've been played.

Every single one before you, played me like I'm worth nothing.

And you're the only one who's ever showed me that I'm someone.

You've showed me that I'm worth more than anything.

It's been like that for almost two years.

I know you can take care of any problem.

But deep down, I can't help but have doubts.

Not about you, but that 'certain problem'.

I hope that this will all pass.

Because I can't stand this feeling.

It's been going on for days ever since you told me what happened.

I wish I could tell you all this, but I know that you'd probably think that I'm over reacting or being dramatic.

All I can do for now is sit back and watch how everything goes.

It kills me.

And in the end, if I have to fight for you.... I will.

I don't mean in violence, oh no.

I'll fight with my will power to make you stay because I know that you've never had this problem, too, and you don't know how to handle it as well.

But may be together we can figure it all out and everything will be back to the way things were.

I hope that it will end soon.

Because knowing it's done is better than waiting.

One last thing I'll say.

It's always the last thing I say when I talk about you or talk to you.

I love you.