Haven't figured out a good title. It started off about friends, but it works for love too. |
I’m screaming into nothing though you’re standing right here I ask for a moment of your time I ask for a shoulder to lean on I have so often lent you mine I’ve sat through your tears and your lies, your heartache and heartbreak Words of comfort and wisdom have I created in my attempts to help renew your soul But when I ask for something, my words fall on deaf ears Standing in a void, screaming my heart out Everything I have, everything I am I cry out from a weary heart I’ve poured and poured only to discover that there is not enough of me I want to cry A soggy heap on the floor A toy crushed underfoot The last drops of an evaporating puddle And there is no one, no one to bear witness to my existence I almost wish I could be stabbed in the back Feel the steely blade of betrayal pierce my nearly still heart But there is no knife, no bitter or spiteful hand There is nothing Because I have never told you a secret, you’ve never been here I almost wish I could hate you wish you had done something so vile, so unforgivable that I could only see the incarnation of my malice in every curve of your face but I cannot, you’ve never stayed long enough to see me angry I wish you could love me Could move me to ecstasy Wish you could be my light in the forest My lifeline in the murky swamp But your light shines for you alone, never caring or resting long enough to illuminate another I wish you could break my heart Move me to poetry Rip my soul into shrapnel Toss it over your shoulder like simple chaff Steal my mirth so that you’ve left me with nothing but you on my mind But you never took the time to make a space in my heart The time to push all the jumbled clutter and set up a place where no one may dwell save for you I wish I could do more than wish Instead, I remain Not hating, not betrayed, not heartbroken, And most assuredly, Not loved |