My Silent Love

My eyes see you, my ears hear you & my heart yearns for you.

Yet, my eyes see more than your face, more than your eyes; they see the gentle spirit within, they see the sadness in your eyes reflecting back at me, they see your soul which is full of light & love yet they see the pain you suffer. They see the lips which I long to kiss, they see the face I long to touch, they see the man before me, they see everything I have ever wanted & yet never tasted.

My ears hear more than your voice, more than your words, more than the sweet laughter; they hear your pain in every word you speak, yet they also hear the delightful laughter that makes my own heart sing with joy & delight, they hear the soft tones of your voice which soothe my spirit. They hear the strength of the man who continues to face life & all it's trials. My voice longs to speak the words that lie in my heart......

My heart yearns for you but yearns beyond the boundaries of friendship, it yearns for your spirit to be joined with mine, for your heart to hear mine & answer it's call. My heart feels yours which is so full of love & light. My heart yearns to feel your touch, your love, to be yours until there is no sand left in the hourglass of this world, the sun is extinguished in it's sky, the world grows cold & life no longer thrives.......my heart yearns for our love to shine on even after all the seasons & times of this world have passed.

Yet I sit here with you now; so close yet miles away from where I wish to be. I could reach out & touch your face, I could whisper the words I dare not speak, I could unleash my aching heart to you.......but I don't, I daren't risk you leaving my side & my world so cold. Instead I sit here & see you, the man full of love, laughter & gentle spirit, & I feel my heart long for you so much that it feels like it might escape it's cage within me. I miss you before you have even left me. It feels strange that the yearning that makes my heart ache with such a sweet pain is also the thing that keeps me warm at night; my love for you comforts me as well as taunting me night after night as I long for you to be laid by my side, to be mine & only mine; no-one else can touch you, no-one else can hurt you, no-one else can feed your spirit like my love for you.

I sit here & dream, I sit here & yearn, I sit here & love.........