What A Life

Here we go again, the nightmares start back up as soon as I fall into the deepest sleep. My life will never return to normal. I was only 16 when that dreadful accident occurred, the one that killed everyone except me. Nothing has been the same since my parents died, I have been alone in the world that now makes no sense at all. I have tried to kill myself multiple times but nothing works, nothing. What am I to do with my messed up, confusing life. How can I end my life, when I can not seem to die.