For my 18-year old brother Sean, after his death. |
I tried to write a poem today I tried to express my grief, My heartache, my unending pain. I tried to eloquently describe All the things I feel within All the reasons I just can't sleep Why thousands of tears, of late Keep caressing my downcast face. I tried so hard to explain away All the sounds of sobbing Resonating in the lonesome dark. Nothing but my grief and so many tears Keep me company through the long night. I tried to come up with a way to tell I thought deep, long and hard Until all my thoughts began to bleed Incoherent then, unable to move Nearly drowning my mind in sorrow. I tried to write you a poem, dear brother But finally I realized No words in any language, none fair nor foul Could tell how deeply I grieve for you, beloved. So many things I wanted to say to you- Now I have to hope that somehow, you know As night's silent embrace envelops me again And once more, ragged sobs and silent tears Are all to be found in the dark. (written August 30th, 2007) I wrote this five days after my younger brother, my only sibling, was killed in a car accident. It may not be my best work, and it isn't my own favorite of my poems, but it was written for a special, wonderful person whom I love(d) with all my heart and this poem is a piece of my heart in words. |