Numb

Shoot novacaine straight into my heart

and numb me from this gut wretching misery,

it's not better to feel pain than nothing at all,

I long to forget what my heart remembers,

time isn't healing this wound fast enough

and all the bandaids in the world aren't enough

to keep the grief from leaking out

and poisoning my thoughts and every action

I long for the embrace of another and the safety

I find in a strong pair of arms,

I yearn for the acceptance I once found there,

but I know that it's far out of my reach,

I just can't trust my heart with anyone again
 
I can't go through that absolute pain again,

the memories are eating up every part of me

so please just make me numb.