Crying

Have you ever cried so hard you, you're lung have a hard

time catching up to your breath?  You know it’s going to

be a big one when you first start feeling that knot on your throat

starting to tighten up.  You fight with all your guts to keep

it all in, even though you know it’s all in vain.  You know that

as soon as you let that small hasp of air escape, you will lose

control.  Your feeling slowly start pouring out of your body after

that first breath and the worst part is that in that very slit

second you know exactly what is going on.  Every feeling you

have bottled up starts filtering out of you system, and you

know there is nothing you can do to stop it from happening. 

You even cried so hard that you feel like your soul is slowly

leaving your body and you can't seem to get a grasp of it. 

Not only is it hard enough that you can't breathe, it's just

hard to stay standing up and constantly keep stopping yourself

from collapsing on to the floor.  Soon after a while, your tears

stop, but your feelings and agony remain.  It’s as if God only gives you a

certain amount of tears, and once you reach the quota they stop

whether or not you’re ready.  Although you try to be tough and

stop you can’t, because the hardest part of crying is to stopping.