What it's like

You can’t know what it’s like
To feel so alone
You don’t know what it’s like
To feel like you have no home

To be filled with self doubt
In every action you take
To hide true emotions
So what they see is all fake

To not know if they like you
To not know what they think
It’s torture beyond words
Always being on the brink

I try to make them happy
But they seem to only see
What I’ve forgotten to do
And the dark side of me

It’s not just them
But everyone around
Am I just paranoid
Or is my sanity sound?

I have no one I can trust
To whom I can really show
The one behind the mask
I want someone to know

About the scars that I have
On the inside and out
About the hurt that I feel
And what I’m all about

I know it’s only hope
Just endless nighttime dreams
Because no one appears to know
That life isn’t what it seems

At least, not for me…